Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Learning to be grateful

The reason why I think i am angry so often is that I am just not grateful enough for all the little things happening around me.

I'm not too sure if it's my job that is turning me into this horrid, ugly angry person...or if i was horrid, ugly and angry to begin and my job was just the catalyst to set me off. Whatever it is, this anger just has to go.

Either that, or i need a new job.


I just realised how angry and frustrated I am when I read Esther's blog about her new life in America. So romantic! She's leading the type of life that I used to (yes, i'm older and jaded now) dream about. Breakfast in bed, a doting hubby, lots of free time...But I'm glad all the same that she's happy.


On another note, now that it's been proven that such men do exist, when can I find a guy in SG who is not stingy, petty, narrow-minded, childish, bad-tempered, egoistic nor smart-alecky and is not gay?
Most Singaporean guys seem to think that chivalry consists only of opening doors for women, reluctantly paying of their meals and carrying their shopping.

I'd really open any number of doors, carry my own freaking bag and shopping as well as pay for my own food if I can find a guy who is down-to-earth, generous, even-tempered, well socialized, and intelligent. I guess he doesn't have to be a good-looking...Er, the Hideous need not apply though.

Dawn is right.
I have accumulated just too much bad karma in this life!!!

I have wasted too much food, bitched about too many, broke too many hearts, spent too much $$$ on crap like shoes and makeup..and now i am paying for it.

I'm doomed. I'm never gonna get married.

Great. And so now that I've realized my predicament, how am I supposed to be grateful again?

XxX,

audrey at 12:40

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