Wednesday, May 31, 2006

busy busy busy

Ahhh…finally. Some time to myself.

This week has been such a hectic week…can’t believe that today is already Weds…it’s really unbelievable how time flies when you have a pile of work just waiting to be done. Even my after-office hours are filled…Not that I have many of such hours to begin with in the first place.

Was down with a major bout of flu and sore throat for the last 1 to 2 weeks…and couldn’t go to the gym. OMG, can just feel the fat building up already lor. How am I going to do my bao za hairdo* at this rate.

Shit shit shit. So bloody irritating.

Cannot. This Friday, die die must go gym. And then to Union after (if I don’t die of a cardiac arrest first).

Who's with me?


*Actually, I don’t really want a bao za hairdo. I want tight ringlet hair…which is about the same to me. Maybe I’ll try the Einstein hairstyle sometime in the future or something.

XxX,

audrey at 19:12

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Saturday, May 27, 2006

Zz versus RJ, RJ versus Zz

I just watched Over the Hedge today. It was pretty good...the script was not too bad...though somewhat predictable. The dialogue was better than average and that made up for a nondescript script (pardon the pun).

Anyhow, as i was watching the show, i was just struck by how RJ (the annoying know-it-all raccoon in the movie) reminded me of zsa zsa. And i was convinced, all through the show, that zsa zsa looked exactly like him.

I was wrong.

See?

Maybe they are just similar in color. The parts on her fur which are lighter are the same as those on RJ. Or both have those round eyes? Perhaps they are similarly irritating. Or for the fact that their ears stick out of their heads all the time? I dunno.

You know, i think i must have subconsciously picked zsa zsa out from all the other dog breeds because I actually wanted a raccoon first before wanting a dog. It is just most unfortunate that I can't breed raccoons in Singapore.

Hahaha...

p/s: I apologise for the lousy pixelated pics...I couldnt find proper ones.

XxX,

audrey at 01:35

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Monday, May 22, 2006

reflection

Was just lying in bed thinking yday night, and a good part of this morning, why did things come to an end? Like this?

My relationships always come to a grind. I am usually the one to end things...reason being that I cannot put up with the their nonsense anymore. And this has made me wonder...Perhaps it is really me who is the problem.

Not something that i'd like to admit to myself. What? Am i really so demanding and anal?

Sometimes i wonder how other couples can be together for years! In fact, i cannot quite grasp the concept of marriage. Am I really so unforgiving? Or do I just have too much opinion?

But I just can't help it. I can't help the fact that i dislike people who are not environmentally conscious, who respect nobody and have a holier-than-thou attitude. I hate it when the state of my day is of insignificant interest to him, i hate having to repeat myself time and time again and tire of people who are consistently late without apology. I hate it when he wants to play safe and do only the tried and tested. I hate stinginess and the kiasu mentality. I get pissed with people who put up a front, pretending to be someone or something they are really not.

As a rule, i think i'm starting to dislike most Singaporean men...with their extremely narrow and sheltered mindsets, and propensity for racism, stinginess and low tolerance for differences.

Not that all Singaporean men are like that. No, definitely not. But most.

And I am supposed to grit my teeth and bear it? The old-school chauvanism? I'm supposed to smile and pretend that i agree?

I'm sorry...i can't. My opinion is getting in the way...and i just can't smile and pamper some man's stupid ego just for kicks.

I mean, if he can't and won't do the same for me, why should i?

So i guess, i'm the kind of woman that men love to hate.

XxX,

audrey at 10:16

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Sunday, May 21, 2006

walking alone and free

i'm alone again..Yes, that explains the change in skin...and why mr mimosa is not a contributor to this blog anymore. Not that he contributed much or often anyway. That said, this blog is now mine, and mine alone again.

Are you surprised? Or would shock be a better word?

I don't know if this is going to be a permanent thing...or if we will get back again. But i do feel as if some great weight has been lifted...strangely. As if the resentment that had accumulated over the last 1 year has been cast away and i am now free.

Am i sad? Yes, i guess. Parting is never a happy event. But yet, a big part of me is feeling relieved. The last few months have been torture. For me, at least. The sullen silences, the resentment, the feelings of rage and then resignation...at least i don't have to put up with these feelings anymore.

Will i regret? I'm not too sure yet, at this point. Perhaps, perhaps not. The last few months, the bad times seriously outweighed the good. But it's hard to tell, really. Though personally, I hate having to look back.

Anyway, i'm gonna be very free nowadays...so you people should know what to do.

XxX,

audrey at 21:00

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

it's a robot thing...

Was at the gym yesterday…alone...and being rather tired of doing resistance training (read: lift weights) all by myself, I attended a Bodycombat class.

Well…this was my third Bodycombat lesson and it’s interesting how different instructors teach the same class differently. They all seem to target different parts of the body…I know, because I’ve been aching in different parts for every class.

Anyway, yesterday’s class seemed to target the upper chest and shoulder blade…for now, I can hardly shrug without feeling some degree of pain. But, no matter.

To cut a long story short, I discovered not only was I not very fit (I was panting like a dog after 20mins and even zz doesn’t pant so much), but that humans have come to be so dependent on the system of things that they have ceased to become thinking beings. More or less, that is.

I think that we have become so used to being told what to do, when to do it and how to do it, that we have conveniently stopped thinking altogether. We’ve all become mindless robots! It was never as glaringly obvious as yesterday, toward the end of my Bodycombat class.

Here’s what happened.

We were warming down and were doing some very light exercises, i.e. leg raises and tummy crunches. After a series of rather taxing leg raises, the instructor started beating her butt to help ease the muscle tension that had been accumulating there. You know, the massaging kind…whereby you gently hit the achy area to relieve tension?

And guess what? The entire class started to do the same. The people were copying the instructor’s reflex action of easing muscle ache.

And mind you, it wasn’t part of the Bodycombat syllabus…because I caught her very brief snort of disbelief that the entire class (with the exception of a few) was following her reflex action of…beating their butts!!

It was so funny!!!

Robots! We’re all becoming unthinking, stupid robots, I tell you.

XxX,

audrey at 17:26

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Sunday, May 14, 2006

What's 53 bites?

Hey guys...

just got back from my siesta at Tioman today and man!! was this one eventful trip.

First off, i got 53 sand fly bites. Yes. 53 goddamned bites! And i think there might be more...but i decided to stop counting at 53...it's quite scary when you know you've been bitten by that many insects. It's madness...and the majority of the bites are on my left leg. On my left leg alone, there are already 32 bites. Omigod..how on earth am i ever gonna wear a skirt again? Apparently, they leave scars!!!!!!! *faint* I am so dead....




























Just take a look at this!!! If anyone out there knows how to cure sandfly bite scars, let me know! I will be eternally grateful. Currently, I'm squeezing lemon juice and rubbing the rind on it to help cure the itch. The lemon stings like mad...but works....for a while. *sigh*

To think, there were zillions of pesky, no-good and altogether annoying sandflies lying in wait for fresh flesh on the white sandy pristine beaches of Tioman.

Oh man....and on top of that, I managed the impossible feat of getting sunburnt on my head. Yeah...my head. I actually managed to roast my scalp...it's now an angry red underneath my hair. I think i've lost some hair as a result too...*cry*

I guess, it'll start to peel sooner or later..considering that my sunburnt scalp is pretty sore. And then i'll look like i have dandruff.

Damn.

I need to go nurse my wounds now..hahaha...will post nicer (read: not gross pic of insect bites) pictures soon. Ciao.


-audrey

XxX,

audrey at 21:35

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

quarter life crisis

I think there’s something wrong with me. I’ve been trying to implement a lot change in my life. Like major drastic changes.

Such as joining a gym (it’s considered a major commitment for me okay!), picking up salsa (something tt I used to think was for aunties but with which I am so totally into right now)…I even have decided that I’m going to pick up the bachata (on top of salsa), rock-climbing and get myself a “bao za” hairdo. Y’know…the tight ringlet kind? Those you see on ang moh baby’s head? Something like a mini afro…hahaha….Mad right? I probably will need to put a paper bag over my head every time I step out of the house after I do it.

But I’ve sort of given up on the idea of getting myself a tattoo. No real real real inspiration at the moment, so why put someone else’s design on my body?

I dunno what has led to all these changes…Maybe I am, as they say, suffering from a quarter-life crisis!!!

I just woke up one day and decided that enough was enough. No more mindless nights of TV, no more aimless shopping, no more getting puke-guts-out-drunk clubbing, no more! I have a life, and I am going to live it. As far as I know, my academic achievements count for nothing…and I am not (most unfortunately) totally in love with my job even thought I’m pretty much enslaved to it. I need achieve…something. Anything.

I think I’ve also gotten tired of being the “other half”. Afterall, you don’t need another person to complete yourself…you are a whole person in your own right. So yeah, I’m sick of having to do everything “together”, go everywhere “together”, to the extent of trying to think the same thoughts. I need to re-establish my own identity…I need to be me again.

And so, that’s what I am doing now, though I can’t say for sure, how “me” these changes really are.

XxX,

audrey at 15:12

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Tuesday, May 09, 2006

pure luxe

GUESS WHAT!!!!!?????????!!

My pure luxe shipment has arrived!!! So happy!

And because I'm stuck at work because it's raining cats & dogs outside, i've decided to put up pictures of my purchases. Er, i bought like 8 samples altogether....blusher, foundation, corrector, etc.....haha...which is ridiculous. And which also means i will be eating more grass this month.


Er, these are the samples of mineral makeup...

They are sitting on my mousepad, in case u were wondering.








And er, this is the envelope my stuff came in....hahahah...super boh liao right?


But i've come to the conclusion that shipping to/from the US is actually not that expensive...it only cost USD$2.50 to send the stuff here...very cheap by my standards.

Which also means the people of eBay, Yahoo and other online aunction sites are RIPPING ME OFF when they tell me that shipping costs are to be paid in pound!!!!

Hai.....when will my spontini be arriving????? i wan i wan i wan it now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

XxX,

audrey at 18:14

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in need of a cushion

my computer has finally arrived. At long last too.

Finally...i don't have to strain my eyes...so looks like i'll still be able to keep the results of my 3K+ laser surgery! hahahaha...

but now that the eye strain is gone, it's been replaced by something else....back ache!!!

Damnit.

Now I need to go look for a cushion.


-audrey

XxX,

audrey at 17:50

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Monday, May 08, 2006

stuffing a dog

mimosa bought zz a pair of boots the other day...but becuz they didnt quite fit (and considering she was far more interested in chewing her booties than wearing them), we exchanged the boots for a doggie bag instead.

it's quite funny to try put zsa zsa into the doggie bag...she's like a jack-in-the-box...her head keeps popping out! 2 people are required to complete the task of stuffing her (yes, stuff her) into the bag. One to push her head in and hold it there while supporting the jiggling bag, and the other to zip up the bag without zipping any of her copious fur in the process.

Anyhow...once inside, she's pretty sedate. In fact, the minute you pick up the bag and sling it on your shoulder, she gets the hint that she's going "gai gai" and so will stop jumping and wriggling inside. 3 minutes of carrying, we could actually unzip the bag slightly for her to put her head out.

Interestingly, after she realizes that the bag is just another mode of transport, zz actually appears to enjoy the ride. Shiok ma...the rocking motion...get to go everywhere, see everything without even having to lift a paw.

Just look at her enjoying the ride! The mutt is resting her head on the bag flap and just watching the world go by. ;P

-audrey

XxX,

audrey at 15:00

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Tuesday, May 02, 2006

East Coast



Hello.

I finally discovered how to put up pictures...after blogging for so long too! Kinda embarassing...but anyway..

Brought zz to East Coast on Sat...and discovered that she loves the water. She tried to wade into the sea..but stopped at our frantic screams (we didn't have a towel to dry her). She succeeded in getting her legs 2/3 wet though.

This is a pic of zz after she found an abandoned sandcastle. She dug a hole the size of herself so that she'd have a nice sand burrow.

Just look at the sand all over her face!

Just me and alv...

XxX,

audrey at 13:55

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