Monday, May 30, 2005
fidelity
Went drinking with my friends the other day at Dblo...and as always, played the usual 5-10. What was interesting was that the forfeit involved kissing...and to my surprise, i realised that
most of my friends are a straight-laced bunch.
Most of my gfs (yeah, guys usually have no qualms abt it) felt that by doing the forfeit, they were somehow
cheating on their bfs. And would really really feel bad about it.
Now, this is really quite interesting because this involves the idea of
fidelity. Isn't it interesting that ppl seem to consider physical cheating far worse than emotional cheating?
Why's that?To me, this logic is flawed. Firstly, everyone is basically the same. We all have similar attributes. I have what every other girl has...give and take some fats here and there. Haha. But my point is, ultimately, we are all the same. Change my face, give me bigger boobs, blah blah blah...but we are basically the same. So why get so hung up over some kisses?
What
really differentiates me from the freaking girl-next-door is that the person in question has feelings for me and not her. So what worries me is that his feelings for me will change rather than than some lousy kisses. Feelings are unique - you can't just develop feelings for anyone, you know. To me, it's the inside that really matters.
I'm not trying to promote polygamy here (although i think it's a pretty cool idea. whahaha!)...but i just can't get it when ppl get all upset over something so small and common as a kiss (c'mon, the ang mos kiss each other in greeting and to say goodbye all the time!).
Isn't it far worse if u fell for someone else but did nothing about your feelings instead?Where would that leave you?
An empty shell that merely follows the protocols of the rules of dating, that's what.
XxX,
audrey at 02:19
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
the pretenders are real pretenders.
Worked at OG People's Park today. Wow..what a difference there is between the crowds at different locations. While the people at Albert only succeeded in making my head swim (okay,
you try giving a thousand leaflets all day with people milling constantly around you but nobdy wants to take what u want to give), the people at P.Park actually
asked me for a pamphlet.
It would seem like i really have no life such that i need to blog about such trivial stuff...but i mention the above only to prove 1 point. That...
...the people who pretend that they cannot see me (the poor, hapless pamphlet distributor who is only doing her job) can really, REALLY see me.Okay..so it's not
the revelation of the century..but it still does prove my point.
The people who pretended not to see me (everybody inevitably tries to avoid me when i hold a stack of papers..all except the foreign workers. Hmm..actually they are starting to smarten up too nowadays. Anyway....) decided to "see" me after suddenly realizing that there was a crowd around the booth and wanted to kaypo-kaypo as well.
So there. I was right when i said that they were pathetic.
XxX,
audrey at 02:53
Sunday, May 22, 2005
more ugly singaporeans...
Okay..i just got home from a long (make that a super long day, considering my ic for the day was david) day of 2 (really lousy huh?) mobile sales and endless pamphlet-giving.
As i was saying, i spent the
whole day giving out leaflets outside OG Albert. And let me tell you, the number of ways people try to "siam" leaflets is really amazing. It's really quite hilarious. I shall spare you the details and only tell you about the kind that pisses me off the most.
**Oh, and may i add that i spent the day trying to give out phamlets to the heartlanders...the majority of the population who make up Singapore society. And by that, I mean the aunties and uncles.**
The most annoying and common way Singaporeans avoid taking pamphlets is to simply
ignore it. Even if it is practically shoved under the nose...or an outstretched arm with leaflet in hand is blocking one's immediate path, Singaporeans have this truly amazing
gift of "seeing no evil". To such specimens, the leaflet, the hand and arm holding onto the leaflet, as well as the person who is blocking your way simply
does not exist.
It never fails to baffle (and not to mention pissed me off) me every single time someone
pretends not to see my outstretched arm extending across his/her torso. How can it be possible?!!!! How can they not see the obstacle in thier way? And why can't they just say "no thank you", or shake their head/hand to politely decline? Actually a teensy gesture that demonstrates that they acknowledge that there is someone is trying to give them something but they do not want it would suffice. But nooooo....they must
"pretend-pretend". Besides, i bet they saw me a mile a way. Everyone can spot an irritating pamphlet distributor anytime. So why can't they just say "no thanks"?! Is that
really so hard?
Wah liao...what's the point man?!
They know that
i know that they are pretending that they can't see me but they still pretend anyway. The funniest kind are those whose eyes give them away. Their eyes dart for a split second to the offensive leaflet in my hand before staring dead ahead. Then once they have ensured that i, the insignificant pamphlet giver, is not worth their time, nothing can tear their gaze away. The silliest thing is that i know that they saw me, but they think i don't know that.
How stupid.And the ultimate of these pretenders is that after some of them get pricked by the sharp edges of the pamphlet (i sometimes prick them with the corners on purpose to double-check that they are really alive.), they still pretend they can't see me. Or feel the prick for that matter. It's simply fantastic. They must have felt the prick...trust me, i've tried it. So this just confirms the fact that they were pretending in the first place.
I think it is so
ironic that the aunties who tell their sons and daughters at home that they must be well-mannered and courteous at all times fail at the most basic level of civility - acknowledging a fellow human being.
Simply Pathetic.
XxX,
audrey at 02:42
Friday, May 20, 2005
home sweet home...?
hey guys, as u can tell...im back from taiwan. Sorry about not posting my tw number up...i totally forgot :P lousy excuse but that's the real truth.
Anyhow..taiwan is a great place to visit...the people are so nice...and not at all as scary and dangerous as some make it out to be.
Perhaps because i was so overwhelmed by the hospitality and graciousness of the taiwanese people that me and my friend had a
minor disagreement. She felt that i was attacking her nation (there you go,
Lee Kuan Yew, a patrotic Singaporean for you!! Says who they don't exist??) whereas i felt i was merely stating a fact. Perhaps it was the Taiwanese civility that truly impressed me...and when compared with Singaporeans, made
me feel
truly ugly.
Okay. Those of you who are
true patriots should STOP reading here.
**Btw, im not saying Taiwan is better than Singapore. As pointedly pointed out by my friend, every country has its own forte. Taiwan also has it's own dogshit to clear. **
Now.K, you've been sufficiently warned.
Of course, im
not saying
all Singaporeans are ugly..But hey, you gotta admit...Singaporeans aren't
generally known to be gracious.
Kiasu and kiasi would really be better descriptions. And many a time, our attitudes are really very much less than desirable.
We call ourselves a developed nation...but in my humble opinion, we seriously lack the civility that defines a nation as 1st world.I'm not saying Singapore isn't a great country (Now, please...don't start ranting on Malaysia. I'll get to that part by myself, thank you.)...
it is. I love the fact that it's clean, and orderly and efficient. What i
don't like is that because Singapore is great, her people seem to think, by association, that they are a class above the rest as compared to other nations in Asia. I just feel that because of our economic standing, Singaporeans think they are more "cultured" and on-par with other developed nations.
Oh really? I don't really think so. Maybe a little better, but definitely not light years ahead.
For example, say you were queuing at a supermarket. Suddenly, the counter next to urs opens. Being 3rd in line, would you offer the person in front of you to go first to the next counter or would u quickly zip across and pay up? I think the latter. What happened to graciousness?
As i was telling my friend,
it's all in our culture. It's the "Me First" culture that really grates on my nerves.
Okay. Not all Singaporean's are snobby and ungracious. There are some nice ones around...But certainly, i've met my fair share of the uglies. *blleeech* Complain, complain, and complain. Bah. Toilet dirty lah...food cold lah...quality not up to standard lah...want to be first in everything...everything must be the best.Argh.
Please, someone put me out my misery.
Anyway, i wouldn't say that i am proud to be Singaporean (haha..im half-half anyway.) but im not ashamed to be identified as one either. I just think Singaporeans should be able to laugh at themselves and admit that they are somewhat uptight and standoffish if someone tells them so. It's not as if the statement is a complete mistruth. I really do think we are.
I'm not saying that i'm a model Singaporean. I'm not. But i can admit to my (can i call Singapore mine?) nation's flaws without getting really offended...I think i can at least do that.
In my opinion, it is only when we are able to see our own flaws that we can truly embrace the democracy and liberty we so desire.
XxX,
audrey at 15:05
woo hoo
haha...check out what i scored. hahahahahaa!!!
| You scored as Sex God. You are a master at sex. You make your partner weak in the knees, and you know it. You've had the practice, and you've read the books, but don't get too cocky (pun intended) or you'll get put into place.
Sex God | | 93% | A Slave To BDSM | | 85% | A Romantic | | 63% | Virgin | | 13% |
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XxX,
audrey at 00:35
Friday, May 06, 2005
to taiwan, to taiwan...
Finally, my freaking exams are O.V.E.R! But i majorly screwed up my bahasa..so im really keeping my fingers crossed that i won't fail. I refuse to repeat another semester for ONE module. That's a cool 2K down the drain, mind u.
Anyhow, I'm going to taiwan tomo..and my bag is HUGE. I mean, it's ridiculously big...and horrendously heavy. The big part i can manage, it's the weight that's really getting to me. Oh man..how the hell am i going to lug this monstrosity of a bag onto the 858 tomo at 9am.
Speaking of which..i cant believe i have to wake up at 8.30am. What rubbish. My flight is at 12. I have not woken up at such an ungodly hour (yes, anything before 11am is ungodly in
my books.) for dunno how long.
I am such a slob. And yes, im actually sort of proud of being one. :P
Anyway, ill be getting a prepaid taiwanese sim card over there..will post the number up so u guys can call me (although i seriously doubt anyone will actually be so nice). Incoming calls are all free. Can u beat that? Free incoming calls for a prepaid card? Wow. When are Singtel, M1 and Starhub gonna pull up their socks man?! Btw, its free 018 to taiwan for Starhub mobile users. *Hint hint*
Haha..okay then. Ill see u guys around. Tata.
XxX,
audrey at 22:59
Thursday, May 05, 2005
nymphomaniac?
I just finished reading this girl's blog (its the nympho link on the right) and decided that actually my life isn't as screwed up as i thought it were to be.
Sure...I've done lots of stuff that i am sure to regret...but nothing can beat what she's done. That said...i wonder if she's nympho? She sure doesn't look the part. Some people just have all the luck.
Okay okay..here's the link. I always knew i had lazy friends.
http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=justagerenjoy.
XxX,
audrey at 02:34