Friday, September 30, 2005

Of apples and oranges, MCPs and feminists.

This post in written in response to mr mimosa's past and latest contributions to this blog with regard to male chauvinism.

Below is an excerpt of the article he used in one of his comments.

“To see a woman paid less than a man for the same work, but over here, we are not talking about fantasies, we are in the real world.”

Not that I think that MCPs are the scum of the earth, I do find certain aspects of their behavior and ideology very disturbing. While I have held my tongue previously, certain events have made me come realisation that silence is not always golden.

While it cannot be denied that discrimination occurs, surely it does not mean that we should condone it? Reality is only real if we act out what we believe in. It is real only if you make it real. For men to constantly brag about how great they are, and how women should always be one step behind them only serves to perpetuate such discrimination. Naturally, however, there will never be a willing party to give up power. Men want to promulgate such discrimination because of their selfish desire to remain in power…not for any other reason. Women at work are constantly faced with "glass ceilings". They are unable to progress any further not because they are incompetent, but because men don't want to share their power. Tell me, honestly, how many female MPs do we have? Considering the demographics, I would say women are ridiculously under-represented in the Cabinet.


Many men make the mistake of believing that the currently status quo is reasonable, good and hence should be maintained because they do not suffer the inconveniences and limitations in society that women do. Of course, if you are experiencing the good life, you will not want to change anything.

While it is easy for those in power to tell those underfoot that they should accept their lot in life and toe the line, it is exceedingly difficult for the trodden to accept it. Therefore, is it thus wrong for women to hanker after equality? I don’t think so. May I know how men are inordinately superior to women? Apart from the obvious physical differences, I really cannot see how they are better. Are they smarter? Not necessarily. In fact, it has been scientificaly proven that men carry the looks, while women carry the intelligence gene. So, really…what’s the hoo-ha about?

It’s not about rivalry. It’s about equality. Based on the word “Chauvinist” alone, the idea of equality has already been thrown out of the window.

Women do not hate men because they are different. We hate men who think themselves superior when they are not.

XxX,

audrey at 13:41

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Wednesday, September 28, 2005

love = respect ??

How do u really know if someone loves you? Like really, really, genuinely love you? How would you know that he/she has no ulterior motive for being together with you?

Based on what assumptions can I determine that my sig. other is with me because of me, and not any other reason? Being there at the right time, at the right time, at the departure of an ex is not a good reason. Not to me, at least.

Can I still say he/she loves me if he/she is really good to me even though he/she shows a lack of respect for my friends and my family?? It's hard to say love exists when respect is lacking.

In fact, it's really quite difficult.

And we all know MCPs only respect men (most misguidedly, infuriatingly and unfortunately). They hold onto the mistaken belief that women are like children...to be seen and not heard.

So, in this inequal world of men and women where MCPs run amokk, can MCPs be said to know love?

Would you not respect the one you love???

XxX,

audrey at 21:40

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Saturday, September 24, 2005

Love = Unconditional? *pui*

Watched this reality show called "wife swap" on ctv yday...and at the end of the show, one of wives on the show mentioned to her husband that she loved him "unconditionally" and that she would "support [him] in whatever decision he made" because she "trusted him". Even though he's a complete jackass and is totally destroying the lives of his 2 daughters in pursuit of his own selfish dream.

*Pui*

Have I ever heard anyone say anything stupider than this? No.

** Fyi, the stupid man point-blank refuses to work (fortunately, or maybe unfortunately, they live on dole in an inefficient welfare state) with the most banal and ridiculous reason that "this is simply not me" and only wants to travel around US in a bus. Oh btw, the entire family lives in a bus and is constantly on the move. **

Why am i so riled up? Well, first off, love is definitely conditional. If it were unconditional, we would just fall in love in everybody and anybody. So that part of the silly wife's claim is just plain wrong.

Second, even if you love someone, it doesn't mean that you have to give in to every freaking whim and fancy that person desires. Why be a wife when you can just be a doormat? At least the description is more accurate. I just find it so infuriating when i see such weak women who let their hearts so completely rule over their heads.

I'm not saying that we should always just do what we want and that compromising is a bad thing. No. All i am saying is that when someone steps all over you and treats you just like some lousy doormat, it is obvious that he/she has total disregard and zero respect for you and your feelings. So then, does he/she love you as a person with opinions, needs and desires...or you because you are a doormat? And honestly, what's the point of hanging around with such a loser who obviously cannot appreciate the preciousness of your sacrifice?

Lastly, the thing that I found most annoying was the part about "trust". In my opinion, trust has to be earned. And in this case, it is obvious that the man is delusional. I hate it when people say things like "I trusted you...and look what happened?". The signs are always there to tell you whether a person can be trusted. It's just a matter of whether you have been paying attention. You can't very well ignore all the signs that point to the fact that this person is irresponsible and then later point fingers. For example, if someone has a history of being late, i would never trust them to make it on time on their own. It just defies logic if you choose to "trust" the person to be punctual when 9 out of 10 he/she is late.

Ultimately, we have to take responsibility for our own lives and our own actions. So if you choose to trust someone instead of yourself to make decisions for you and get flak for it later, that's just too bad.





XxX,

audrey at 14:08

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Tuesday, September 20, 2005

first day

woke up at 7am today. The earliest i have gotten up in the last 1 year or so. Wow. I am impressed with myself. And the best thing is, i have to keep it up. I'm officially screwed.

the air is really dry...and so my eyes have red spidery lines running through them. Someone should invent eye moisturiser. Damnit.

XxX,

audrey at 13:56

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Monday, September 19, 2005

murphy's law

Guess what my dad bought me and my mom? Pepper spray. Amazing. And you would think that he should have bought this for me a few years back...when i was much younger, much more stupid and alot more naive. But oh well...

Anyhow, I was just doing some thinking and i have sort of come to the conclusion that murphy's law really exists. The more you want something, the less likely you are going to get it.

Like my job for instance. I spent a grand total of 2 weeks of active searching and nothing, and i mean zilch, turned up. Everything that came along just doesn't seem right. And then, when i decided that i had just about enough and take whatever that comes along, BANG! I get the job.

I bet Murphy must have been some real smart dude...cuz this applies to relationships too. When you are attached or plain not interested, you are suddenly like the flame that attracts way too many moths. And mind you, these are moths you are talking about. Not butterflies.

Wonder why is that? Is that why all the single people are still single? Becuz they have to be attached first to attract the correct kind of person they want?

XxX,

audrey at 01:08

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Thursday, September 15, 2005

employment

i would like to announce that my job search is now officially OVER!

If everything goes according to plan, i will be starting work this coming tues! So yaaaaay!~

And btw, for those who are considering recruitment as a career path, think twice about joining recruit express. They have 4 rounds of interviews, with each interviewer nastier than the next, you have to wear suit all day, take a 20% pay cut if u don't hit your target and worst of all, their CEO (in my personal opinion) is a complete jackass.

Anyhow, i'm going to be working for active8, a web design house. I'll be posted at outram, so lunch, anyone?

XxX,

audrey at 00:20

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Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Your 1st eleven (Present and Past)

All right, here's my pick:

Present

442 system:

Manager: Stuart Pearce (England)
Assisting Manager: R. Vengadalasam (Singapore)

Goalkeeper: Petr Cech (Czech)
Left Back: Santos (Japan)
Right Back: John Heitinga (Holland)
Centre Back : Fabio Cannavaro (Italy) - Captain
Centre Back: Micheal Dawson (England)
Left Wing : Andy Reid (Rep. Ireland)
Right Wing: Jermaine Jenas (England)
Centre Mid (Playmaker) : Gareth Williams (Scotland)
Centre Mid (Holding) : David Prutton (England)
Forward: Adriano (Brazil)
Forward: Henry (France)

Past:

Manager: Brian Clough (England)
Assisting Manager: Bill Shankly (England)

Goalkeeper: Peter Shilton (England)
Left Wing: Colin Barett (England)
Centre-back: Viv Anderson (England)
Centre back: Kenny Burns (England) - Captain
Right Back: John McGovern (Scotland)
Left Wing (Playermaker) : John Roberston (Scotland)
Centre Mid: Archie Gemmil (Scotland)
Centre Mid: (Holding) Ian Bowyer (England)
Right Wing: Martin O'Neill (Scotland)
Forward: Trevor Francis (England)
Forward: Tony Woodcock (England)

The Masterpiece

XxX,

Mr_Mimosa at 15:26

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Tuesday, September 13, 2005

deja vu?

I was just thinking...do we always have a mental picture of what we want in our life partner and therefore always subconsciously pick out the same traits in different people?

Wouldn't it then be a rather acute case of deja vu?

Like you are still seeing the same person...albeit in a different person. Like...same kind of hair, similar taste, etc. only that these physical traits are on a different person.

And wouldn't it be strange if these two similar people met...only to find out that they are vying for the same person? Hmm....if that were the case, then these 2 people should have made very good friends in different circumstances.

Me?

I would like to think that i have broken out of the mould...Pretty boys are useless creatures. Period.

XxX,

audrey at 02:51

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Saturday, September 10, 2005

RE: Nissan Sunnys? Not here!

Recently, Cycle and Carriage released the Lancer Evolution 9 , a 2 litre 4WD firing breathing car capped at 280bhp/180 ts. (5 secs to 100km/h) Sum to pay: $155, 998.

Motor Image has since kept up with the challenge from Mitsubishi, with a soon to be released Subaru WRX STI, 2.5 litre AWD monster capable of generating 300bhp/200ts (4 seconds to 100km/h). Sum to pay: Expected to be around $150,000

Now a brief summary for some of the cars that I have driven. I’ll leave out most engine specs and mods for greenies with cars, concentrating on the exteriors.

1) Mazda MX-5 (MK2) 1994

Now this little beauty of mine couldn’t stop heads turning. With fiery red paint top with spicy red leather seats wrapped altogether by a nice TX bodykit, the white 16s” rims made it picture perfect. The ultimate machine for a single yuppie, lol! To bad, it lost out in terms of ts, generating only a 120bhp/85ts despite undergoing heavy alterations to the engine.

Reason to selling: A lady saw my car on the streets left me note expressing interest and soon I made a 5k profit. My real desire was to pave way for a much bigger monster actually.

2) Mazda RX-7 Efini (Gen 2) 1996

What could I say? This is a huge monster!!! This is the only car I dread driving every morning. The rotary inspired engine pumps out devilish figures. 500bhp/ 350ts (3.8 second dyno tested to 100km/h).White paint spilled over with a Cwest Bodykit and GT Wing wrapped in 18” inch titanium gun-metal LS rims. Through pipe courtesy from MAN Exhaust made ensured huge sparks and fires whenever shift ins, accompanying the enchanting melodies from the HKS BOV and wastegate. This monster actually beats Ferraris, porsches. I will always remember that disbelieved look of that chap in a F360.

Reason to selling: Monster appetite. A 2.6 litre engine takes up not only ½ tank just traveling from Woodlands to Orchard, I couldn’t get my jet fuel (yep, the fuel used by areoplanes as this car has a second “secret” inlet located in the boot for an extra ethanol boost at 1.5 bar least). A weekend out would have cost me (Octane 98 xo halftank - $80 plus $50 for a litre of jet). Besides that, I was getting too much attention from TP, ending up paying almost 5k for fines to illegal mods. Decided for trade in after some deep thoughts. I cried in fact for almost a week, a real car for true car enthusiasts. See more of that car in the cartoon initial D, yellow car driven by one of the brothers.

3) Nissan Silvia S14 1998

Life after the RX-7. The S14’s SR20DET engine is one of the most versatile engines around since the 90s. Able to take a huge thrashing, heavy modifications and heat, it is not surprising to see Malaysian proton cars opting to swap in for this heart, for it’s reliability and the reasonable pricing. S14 baby was decked in Gun-Metal paint top with a Gunza body kit and Cwest GT Wing, wrapped in 19” inches gunmetal alloy rims from Tamaka racing. As usual, the connotations included a MAN fire Exhaust custom made through piping top with a blitz BOV. Nothing to shout about for the speed, 250bhp/160ts (7.6 secs to 100km/h). A heavy car which took a while to warm up, highway specialists but a cornering defeater despite the altered D. Surprisingly, the fc was 10/L. very good considering a turbo modded machine.

Reason to selling: By now, a 24 points license became a 3 points elevation. I have to stop this racing fantasy as I was suck out dry (i.e., financing draining and emotionally suffocating (i.e., being part of the underground “orchard gudang” group and the type of interaction, go watch fast and furious and you will know why).

There loads for cars I have driven including:

1) Nissan 350z MK1
2) Rover 600 knight Ltd
3) Volkswagon Caddy (yes, I chiong van too, lol)
4) Subaru TS
5) Mercedes C200 Kompressor.

Concurrently recuperating, driving the lancer glx sports. It wouldn’t be long when my decision comes in for another spin-off and my points come back bit by bit.

Current cars in consideration

1) Subaru WRX STI (Good car, loved by Muffin too)
2) Toyota MRS Spyder (2 seater top down baby)
3) Honda Accord GT / Civic new model 2006 (Sporty, packing muscles)

More to come, I love cars!

The Masterpiece

XxX,

Mr_Mimosa at 03:03

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The Road Not Taken

Ever wondered what would have happened if you didn't do what you did and now lived in an alternate reality?

Sometimes, some things happen that almost make u wish that you took the other path. Here's one of my favourite poems by Robert Frost. Enjoy.

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down on as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet, knowing how way leads onto way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -
And I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

XxX,

audrey at 02:57

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apologies

First, i'd like to apologise to the people reading this blog for mr mimosa's outburst. So...im sorry.

I don't think its right to scream at anybody u like when you're mad, but let's just say that some people just need an outlet. Well, i'd rather him find an outlet than let it go at me any day so hope u guys understand.

So mr mimosa, i do hope u know what u are doing.

XxX,

audrey at 00:36

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Friday, September 09, 2005

RE: Peasants

Dear Peasants,

Just in case the lot of you have forgotten,

the masterpiece is feeling a little under the weather,

so here goes:

FUCK YOU ALL!!!

LADIES KNEEL DOWN AND SERVE WHILE THE SNAGs CAN KISS THE MASTER'S ASS

THE MASTERPIECE
(remember, THE MASTERPIECE is not a god but a living saint)

XxX,

Mr_Mimosa at 23:43

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Day 3

Was supposed to go for my post-opt checkup today at 8.30am at the eye centre today...but im sure anyone who knows me that being anywhere but in my bed at 8.30am in the morning is a goddamned joke. So i was late.

I waltzed in at 11am.

And boy am i glad i was late. I managed to see my doc within 45mins. Cool. And i thought i would be there for hours. I guess sometimes it really does pay to be late. At least i got a free ride to the SNEC (courtesy of mr mimosa) and didnt have to drag myself out of bed.

So, hows my eye?

Well, i have this giant red splotch in my right eye. The blood vessels in the right eye burst yesterday because of the doc had to literally jam the damned ring into my eye. So i look really scary now when i open my eyes wide and glare at you. I give a new meaning to the term "bloodshot eyes".

But the splotches dont hurt me...they only bruise my ego cuz i don't think my eyes are quite so pretty anymore. Sigh..but they are supposed to go away in a week or two. If they don't, i'll stand outside the SNEC and scream.


*note to mr mimosa: Hah! I was right! My right eye was really swollen and really hurt and it wasn't all just psychological. Huh...you'd never understand becuz u have big eyes, damnit.*


My vision is pretty good..though the clarity fluctuates somewhat. It's supposed to stabilize in a month or so. Oh, and the glare of the lights. It's horrible. I wear dark glasses all the time now. In fact, i'm wearing them now (its 3.30am in the morning) as i stare at the screen and type. I feel like a vampire. I embrace the dark...haha...cuz i get dizzy when im in bright light. Sigh.

And i can't wear eye makeup for a week. Oh, the torture!!! My dark eye rings are finally seeing the light of day for the first time in years. Haha...I'm so glad i didn't do this after i started work. I think i will seriously scare the living daylights out of anyone. Hahahahah.....




XxX,

audrey at 03:17

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Thursday, September 08, 2005

Day 2

Did my right eye today..and it hurt significantly more than my left. It was so super painful.I'm so glad i have only 2 eyes because if i had 3, i would resigned the 3rd to wearing lens for the rest of my life. I am so not gonig to go through this process again.

Apparently, whether or not u feel pain during the surgery is highly dependent on the size of your eye. Yep. It literally boils down to that. it was so painful for me because the ring that they had to insert into my eye to create the flap was too big. Even the mini one couldn't really go in. So it was pretty much forced entry. And the worst thing was, they tried a few times with the rings..so my eye really hurts now.

I think it's swollen..but mr mimosa thinks its all in my head and he cannot differentiate the difference between my left and right eye. But i know better. It is swollen. And painful.

Recommendation?

Do lasik only if u have big eyes. Otherwise, opt for the sedative and painkillers. Big time.

XxX,

audrey at 00:36

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Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Day 1

I just back home from the eye centre..and feel as if i got chilli stuck in my left eye (that's the eye i did laser on, in case u were wondering).

It hurts. And this proves that they lied. Humpfh.

Accordign to michelle's colleague, im not supposed to look at the computer screen if i want 6/6 vision...but my urge to tell someone about what happened is simply overwhelming. So im doing the next best thing. I'm typing but not looking at the screen..so technically, i am not looking at the screen. Haha.

Anyhow, i hope u guys will forgive me for any typos and seemingly incoherent sentences...i can't help it since i am only using one eye. And not looking at the screen.

Oh, btw..because of the damn glare..i am wearing sunglasses AND a visor in my own home. Sounds ridiculous? Well, it's true.

Lasik surgery is scary. Far scarier than i expected it to be. It's particularly scary for me because i am not in control of the situation. I hate that. And of course, the chilli eye syndrome.

Why didnt anyone warn me about the chilli eye syndrome? Does this affliction only affect those with ver thin corneas? Mr mimosa didn't have this problem. Heck , he could see immediately after super clear. Me? I'm still bumping my way around my own home.

Ahh..anyway,anyway, for those considering lasik..all i can say is...BEWARE OF THE CHILLI EYES SYNDROME. It's not fun..and i dread tomorrow when i have to get another chilli eye.

Sigh.

XxX,

audrey at 17:25

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Monday, September 05, 2005

My eyes!

According to my doctor, I have thinner corneas than the average man (or woman, for that matter). He says that I'm really lucky that my eyesight isn't thaaaaat bad so my myopia is still rectifiable by laser. Phew.

But this worries me all the same.

Thin corneas?

Thinner than average corneas?

Hmm..not that i can feel any difference...but WHY DO I HAVE THINNER THAN AVERAGE CORNEAS?!!!

Damnit. I guess maybe sometimes it's actually good to be thick in the head. Haha. But i get to go ahead with my surgery tomorrow anyway. Sans makeup.

Oh boy...how long has it been since that i've left the house with a bare face???

XxX,

audrey at 21:38

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Lasik - Check up day

Today is my checkup day. I'll be at the Eye centre later this afternoon to determine the suitability of my eyes for laser surgery. How cool is that? Very cool.

Apparently, according to mimosa, the whole process will take about 4 hours. Wow. That's pretty long. Bet i'll get a butt-ache after..but that's besides the point. Anyhow, they're gonna drip some eye drops to dilate my pupils to determine the amount of tissue to laser off. If everything goes according to plan, I should be able to do my first eye tomo.

Wish me luck guys!

XxX,

audrey at 10:49

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Sunday, September 04, 2005

marriage

Couldn't resist myself...had to blog to kill time while waiting for mr mimosa to get ready. And also to share this piece of news...one of my friends is getting married! Yes, married.

It's kinda scary when your own friend gets married. It makes you feel old. It also makes you wonder if you going to step into the grave of love soon too.

Why do people get married? Why cant we all just co-habilitate? Why do we need a certificate to prove that we really love each other and that we'd only part in death? Bah.

okay..he's coming now. I'll blog again later. Ta!~

XxX,

audrey at 16:03

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a quick update...

Hi guys,

Thailand was great. The shopping was, as usual, cheap so i bought a ton of stuff that i like but don't need. But save that, i guess i did little else (as expected.haha). But the real highlight of the trip was the visit to the A&E at 4am in the morning due to a case of bad food poisoning. As they say, it is the weird and bad things that happen on a trip that tend to stay with you for life. And honestly, i fully subscribe to this view. And while it wasn't fun when it happened, it really did make this trip most memorable.

Oh, and btw, the Bangkok A&E at Sukumvit totally beats Singapore's A&E (in any hospital) hands-down. It was fast, efficient and super clean. And best of all, NO waiting. And that's the whole point of the ER isn't it? That you get attention immediately? I tell you, in Singapore, you'd probably have to die first before they come to see you. You have to wait like, 3 hours. Ridiculous. Trust me, I have had first hand experience in the A&E in Singapore.

Anyhow, I'm back in Singapore and my job hunt has now officially begun after months of denial and slacking. I never thought I would one to slack upon graduation, but i guess you can never know yourself too well either. Anyhow, I'm now looking for a job..and it TOTALLY and ABSOLUTELY sucks to the core. So, anyone with lobang or connections, pls show yourselves IMMEDIATELY! Hahaha.

Ah yes, and tomo im going for my eye checkup to determine my suitability for LASIK. Yeah. Finally. No more contacts or glasses. Ever again. Yeaah!

XxX,

audrey at 14:53

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Thursday, September 01, 2005

back

Hiyee...

Im back from Bangkok. Will fill you guys up on the detail...but first, check out my pics! Just click on the link on the right.

XxX,

audrey at 02:40

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