Monday, January 24, 2005

Hello.

I'm in a good mood today. Why? Because i survived one super long day in school, went jogging (using the word "sedentary" to describe me is usually an understatement), climbed 10 flights of stairs, helped my mom hang the laundry (yes, i amaze myself sometimes too.), changed my hamsters' bedding, had a relatively decent coversation with my bf..and found a book that is worthwhile reading (yes, i have snobby literary taste). Boring? Haha.

Better yet..i discovered only a few days back the main virtue of being a workaholic. You lose weight. And i would like to proudly declare i can squeeze into my size 24 levi's once more. Not that i'm for the stick insect look, but hey..i'm not exactly a long bean, you know.

Woo hoo. So isn't today a good day or what? :D

I was just wondering to myself whether i would seriously end up getting married. Well, i know for a fact that i want to eventually. But its more than just a thin line between wishing and reality.
I seriously wonder if the love of my life has actually passed me by...? And what would i do if that were really true? Hmmz. I wonder if i would ever settle for someone who merely satisfies my requirements..or would it be better to be just alone?

Come to think of it, i never understand why shd 2 ppl who obviously have an attraction for each other choose to sweep everything under the carpet and not get together. Yes..i know, we should always think twice before we jump ship. But hey..life doesn't last forever, you know. I say grab the opportunity by the balls (oops, pardon my language here). The worst part of plain admiration is that you remain as a nobody. Why would anyone want to remain as a nobody? I just don't get it.

XxX,

audrey at 23:46

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Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Welcoming 2005

Drats. School's started..and Im still like stuck in 2004. I skipped my first day of school (which always signifies a bad start to the semester) and am now in a complete blur. Great. To top it off, I'm becoming increasingly perplexed by my almost non-existent relationship with my so-called bf. Bah.

Well, since i have mentioned it, is it normal for a couple to drift apart after some time? I am always ever so amazed by people who can remain as close as they were on the 1st day they fell hopelessly in love as 5 years later. I just cannot understand it. Is it me? Or is it him? Or is it that we are just not meant to be? Or the fact that this is normal?

By the way things are going, i fear that i will live a long lonely life. Why is it that 6 hour conversations can disappear and be replaced by silence? When did i stop hanging by the phone hoping he'd call? How is it that we can stop giving each other the time of the day? As they say, familiarity breeds contempt. But, is it acceptable?

Why do relationship always start with a bang..only to fizzle out in the end? Or am I just not quite ready to start a real one? Ah...questions and more questions.

XxX,

audrey at 14:13

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