Sunday, May 21, 2006

walking alone and free

i'm alone again..Yes, that explains the change in skin...and why mr mimosa is not a contributor to this blog anymore. Not that he contributed much or often anyway. That said, this blog is now mine, and mine alone again.

Are you surprised? Or would shock be a better word?

I don't know if this is going to be a permanent thing...or if we will get back again. But i do feel as if some great weight has been lifted...strangely. As if the resentment that had accumulated over the last 1 year has been cast away and i am now free.

Am i sad? Yes, i guess. Parting is never a happy event. But yet, a big part of me is feeling relieved. The last few months have been torture. For me, at least. The sullen silences, the resentment, the feelings of rage and then resignation...at least i don't have to put up with these feelings anymore.

Will i regret? I'm not too sure yet, at this point. Perhaps, perhaps not. The last few months, the bad times seriously outweighed the good. But it's hard to tell, really. Though personally, I hate having to look back.

Anyway, i'm gonna be very free nowadays...so you people should know what to do.

XxX,

audrey at 21:00

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