Monday, July 18, 2005

To con a con-man

Im so impressed by the succinctness of esther's comment that i decided to do her the honour of further commenting on it here. Her comment was as follows:

"trying to find a man who flirts with many and hope he finds you a gem is stupid, just as trying to find love from a prostitute, if you think like that you deserve to be cheated just like the people who got conned , if they didn't get conned by A they will be conned by B, why? because they chose to be naive, they chose to believe without evidence. "

Why...i believe this perfectly sums up my fatalistic attraction for bad men. Suffered a major ouchy (really hit raw nerves there) when i read it but haha...and yes, i'll admit..i often choose to be naive and believe.

I guess it's really just the ego talking whenever that happens. Ah really...i never thought i would be guilty of such stupidity...but then again i guess there's a first for everything. So maybe it's time for a major overhaul of my emotional works.

But on second thoughts, i'm actually quite happy the way i am so maybe i will just put the overhaul on hold for the moment. While it may seem stupid to believe a player when he tells you he loves you...the trick is really to pretend to believe at the start (so he'll be nice and also to give yourself a chance with the fella.) and then later really believe when he has truly proven himself worthy. I guess it's really like trying to con the con-man who is trying to pull a fast one on you.

While this may seem liken love to a game, we ought to face up to the fact that people are generally not too honest.

You can never really know if the person you entrust your heart with is ever going to break it. People change. I'm sure as hell meant it when i told my ex that i would love him forever...but i didn't..and couldn't. And i never ever mean to break anybody's heart. But i have. Sometimes...shit just happens.

So...really...isn't love just like a game whereby one strives to keep his/her heart intact in the best way he/she knows how? In my opinion, it's just easier to play the game by the usual rules to find "the one"..it's just not so painful when you look at the world in shades of grey.

XxX,

audrey at 01:22

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