Tuesday, July 12, 2005

life.

I wonder what would it be like to live my life as another person…and look at the world from a completely different perspective. Now…wouldn’t that be interesting?

Imagine me…as Lee Kuan Yew! Wahahaha!

What would it be like to be completely serious and nerdy…to stay home all day and do nothing but play computer games...know nothing about the opposite sex and possibly jerk off every night in desperation?

What if I was someone who looked at the world through rose-tinted glasses and await the day that my knight in shining amour will sweep me off my feet?

Erm, just in case u were wondering, I’ll admit that im somewhat jaded and don’t believe in the perfect man/soulmate/happily-ever-after shit anymore.

This is, of course, not to say that I am unhappy…I am. I’ve not been as happy or contented as I am now in a long time…but I think my perception of life has changed somewhat. I believe that I have finally found someone that I don’t have to dumb down for…and who is fun and entertaining to keep my wandering mind occupied.

But the most interesting thing about my new relationship is that I actually feel somewhat insecure at times. Interesting because I next to never feel insecure in my past relationships…save one. Not that I think im god’s gift to mankind or any of that kind of bull, but I really never felt threatened before. Or maybe I was just blissfully ignorant (read: they lied). In anycase, it really kinda amuses and irks me at the same time that I appear to be turning into one of those icky people.

Man oh man…what am i gonna do?

XxX,

audrey at 17:15

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