Saturday, June 11, 2005

am i one sick fuck?

This has been, in the most understated way, one of the most interesting weeks i have had in a very long time.

I've come to the realization that being true to yourself is a very difficult thing to do indeed..as evident from the ramifications of one of my recent posts on fidelity. I get blasted for speaking my mind. Hmm....practicing self-censorship on my own blog??? What an interesting idea.

But before any argument escalates into anything bigger, i think it would be of note to say that i try not to pinpoint anyone in particular per se in my blogs. Perhaps some of my ideas are controversial and are morally wrong..and maybe i really am one big sick fuck, but what's that to you? Would you like to judge me? Okay, i guess.

Judgemental? I...?

Well, i'd like to think that i am less so than most other people. I'd also like to believe that i am generally more accepting of the idiosyncracies of others than most and I don't think i coerce my friends into suscribing to my beliefs. Generally, i'm quite happy to go along with masses..maybe to the extent that over-rides the common sense..or the moral norms.

Now, i don't really think there ever is a clear right or wrong about anything in this world. Yup, not even murder. Every murderer commited the crime for a reason..and of course in his/her mind, the reason will always justify the action. So really, it all just boils down to perspective.

Everyone will always think they are right...and in a way, yes, they are. So why should i disagree with them when they are not wrong? I would agree with them if i were in their shoes. But yet, if i agree that they are right (and which they are, from their perspective), does that mean i am a yes-woman and that i do not stand up for what i believe?

It's always easy to say you are right...but it's always harder to say that the other person is also right.

I don't want to judge people, but then again, everyone judges. Consciously or subconciously, we all judge. It's only human.

So if i offended you guys, im sorry but maybe it'd just be easier to not read my blog.

XxX,

audrey at 04:12

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