Tuesday, March 01, 2005

is the grass really greener on the other side?

I'm certainly in a melancholy mood today. My lousy mood probably has everything to do with stress (yes, my slacking has finally caught up with me. The deadlines are forming a noose around my neck!) and the fact that i spent another lonely (not to mention stressful) day at home tdy staring at the computer. It's pretty shitty to be faced with 5 papers to write, 2 tests the next day that u haven't studied..and unread readings for all your subjects for the whole semester. Believe me when i say i am overwhelmed, i really am. And yes, i know...it's my fault for procrastinating..but u needn't bang me over the head with that piece of information, u know.

Anyhow...here i am blogging instead of studying..which is very bad..and is just as effective as solving an algebriac equation by chewing bubblegum..but who cares? I failed my math in school all the time anyway..and look where it's gotten me?!

Speaking of which, i wish i studied law instead of info comm. God knows what can i do with my degree. Maybe i should take a cue from my secondary school friend's mom and just sleep on it. Damn it.

I had too much time on my hands this afternoon so a few random thoughts passed through my head. I started to wonder (and that's never a good sign. Prepare urself for the following onslaught of nonsense! Stop reading here if u can't take rubbish.) what life would be like if :

1) I was so heart wrenching beautiful and tall and could earn millions by appearing on magazines wearing haute couture and looking stupid. Sigh. Everyone knows that good looking people have it so good. Guys fall over their feet trying to impress u...and that usually means free rides, free gifts..free everything. And you can have a model bf as well! Wow..how fun is that?? I mean, turn up the heat! Then i thought to myself..then the girls would all hate me (blame it on nature) for being so good looking and say the nastiest things about me. And everybody knows that guys can be such jerks at times so really, a girl is still a girl's best friend. I then proceeded to my next fantasy...

2) All i need is the best boyfriend in the world. He would be smart, handsome, understanding, funny...yada yada...I would be so happy..(and not to mention the envy of the town) and i wouldn't have to quarrel and nobody would need to change..then i realised that i would probably end up feeling inferior and insecure all the time. Who wouldn't want such a great guy? Im more likely to spend all my time fending off vixens than enjoying him, so...

Then after a while, i figured that everyone has their problems...and well, the grass isn't really greener on the otherside...it's just the stupid little voice in your head telling you that it is. Besides, who needs grass anyway? I'm certainly no fucking cow.

XxX,

audrey at 21:44

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