Monday, March 14, 2005

don't mind me..im just ranting.

hi.

The week is finally over. Last week must have been one of the longest weeks in my life. Sigh, and i still have one more week to go before i can relax a little more.

Well, needless to say, all the projects and work has made me very stressed and therefore rather cranky and irritable. So i'd like to apologise right now before i start my bitching.

First off, I want to officially declare that i think non-smokers who start picking up smoking now are very stupid. No offence, but seriously, why pick up such a habit when the price of cigs are sky rocketing? And isn't wisdom supposed to come with age? Why start when everyone is trying to quit? I don't quite think there is peer pressure involved when nobody offers u a cig but u choose to ask for one yourself.

*Side note: It's not who u think it is Royston. I have nothing against her.*

Yes, as i was saying..it's damn stupid to pick up smoking right now. Smoking is not cool. I think most smokers would agree with me that it is more of a liability than anything else. I mean, u are practically burning ur hard earned money with no apparent benefits. Not even a lousy high. And the worst thing to do is to pretend its a big deal. Bah.

Next up, my friend has just gotten back with her bf. By right, I should be happy for her. Unfortunately, i am not. I feel that she should move on because it just isn't working out. Isn't it strange that we always try to get what we cannot have? I know that i always want whatever is just out of reach...before i get it, it always seems so perfect...but the minute i lay my hands on it, i decide it just isn't what i want anymore.

And the other thing is that I'm angry that her so-called bf has made her a shadow of her former self. Now..why is this the case everytime? Sigh. I'm beginning to think that love is really stupid. Why can't we fall in love and still be ourselves? Why does every one i know become different the minute they get together with someone? Why do we still do what we do even though we know its not good for us?

Sigh.

Or maybe im just bitter cuz i don't really know if im in love at all anymore.

XxX,

audrey at 12:27

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