Sunday, July 27, 2003

hi guys..

i'd like to think that i have a long term part time job going on for me now at Starhub. :)

I was just thinking to myself the other day as i stonily watched the trees and houses whizz by on the mrt, how can humans attain Nirvana in this current age when everything is moving at super fast speed? The reason why i was entertaining such a weird thought was because i was feeling weirdly contented and at peace with the world while watching other people being stressed up. I wondered why was it that monks and nuns could seem so peaceful and tranquil and calm ( i think u get the picture) and so seemingly near the attainment of Sainthood while the res of us mere mortals seem to be heading more toward Hell rather than Heaven. I mean, let's face it, we are so so sooooooooooooooo far from perfect..i can't even maintain the peace with the world feeling for more than 15mins. The feeling immediately disappears the minute someone cuts into my Q or steps on my toe without saying sorry.

After pondering about it for a few days..i think maybe i have come upon the answer. Granted, at first i was tempted to just say that monks and nuns and priests etc. have the calling so its naturally easier for them..however, that would be fitting an answer to the question. After more brain contractions...i conclude that monks and nuns don't have to rush through life like the rest of us do. WE have goals to attain, money to earn, people to lay (okay..i was merely kidding about the last one) while monks and nuns don't. They have lots of time to pray...meditate...pray....pray and pray some more. Nobody really rushes and everybody has their own part cut out for them..eg: Monk 1 cleans the room, Monk 2 cooks and so on.

With that said..i guess we'll always fall short of the ideal devotee...and BTW, WHO dictated how devotees should act and feel anyway?? I highly suspect it was a priest or someone from the Order..........

XxX,

audrey at 00:04

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